quieras o no son parte de ti :/

hace un rato me puse a ver videos de una chica francesa llamada soko, toca musica muy bonita y algo liberal, al menos para el pensamiento del mexicano promedio, ok al menos para mi pensamiento :/ ( aun busco a una princesista) el chiste es que en el video se nego a cantar una cancion, la cual era con la que se dio mas a conocer, la cancion se llama I'll kill her,
una de esas canciones muy personales, en las que de verdad plasmas un sentimiento que te hace sufrir, de esas canciones que se escriben casi solas con todo el dolor de tu alma, esto hizo que me llegara a la mente inmediatamente "creep" de Radiohead, quieran o no es una cancion bien sufrida tambien, la cancion mas reproducida (choteada) de ellos, al punto que en un tiempo ya ni la querian tocar, lo que me hizo pensar mas, sera realmente la fama de la cancion lo que los hace no querer tocarla? o simplemente ya no sienten esa necesidad de expresar aquel sentimiento? bien ahora Radiohead si toca esa cancion en vivo, per en algun momento creyo que ya era tiempo de superar aquello que lo hizo escribir eso? lo que me lleva a postergar re=escribir todo lo que habia escrito para la publicacion de un libro pues se trata principalmente de sentimientos puestos en papel que ya no siento como cuando lo escribi, desde hace tiempo pense que era tiempo de moverse y dejar atras todo aquello, pero estara bien recopilar todas esas promesas rotas de amor eterno y venderlas como souvenirs ???


Me ha pasado muchas veces, que en ves de leer lo que escribo como solo un verso mas, la gente que me conoce cree que estoy mal(triste, deprimido) por esa razon aunque lo que leyeron formara parte de un pasado desde mucho tiempo atras. Estoy en medio de la percepcion de quien se adue~na de las letras y las hace parte de si y de quien no las separa de mis fantasias de sue~nos guajiros

lifting my feet

I'm afraid to lift my feet and being wondering with no direction, and then, suddenly fall to the ground and break my recently mended broken heart
detente alli corazon, a donde crees que vas tan rapido?
parece que no entiendes que en este tipo de situaciones las cosas se tratan paso a paso
no puedes ir por alli proclamando eternidad a algo que no sabes si surgira en algun momento.
no te digo que pierdas esperanza, o que no tiebnes que sentir asi. pero ya te ha pasado antes por acelerar tanto te estrellas en la meta, :/ asi que pisa con cuidado y no metas la pata denuevo

esperar

y asi derepente la damita cumplio 15
su padre apenas pudo recitar su discurso sin llorar
justo antes de verla bailar esta musica de ahora

y los años pasan agotando la existencia
y nadie se da cuenta de lo que deja perder
al no acercarse a sacar a bailar a aquella chica
de vestido blanco con negro,
esperando a que ella se acerque?
-bailas?- solo cuando estoy contento, o borracho,
-que te tomas?- agua, hoy me toca manejar
- estas bien? te noto triste,-triste, enojado, todo me pasa hoy.
es uno de esos dias que quieres que terminen rapido
pero duran mas que todos los felices juntos...
pero tu puedes hacerme feliz...
reacciona! te esta viendo y tu soñando con hablarle.
pero hoy no tengo palabras bonitas
ni ganas de decirlas

HOW TO BE ALONE [Tanya Davis]

If you are at first lonely, be patient.

If you’ve not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren’t okay with it, then just wait. You’ll find its fine to be alone once you’re embracing it.

We can start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library, where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books, you’re not supposed to talk much anyway so its safe there.

There is also the gym, if your shy, you can hang out with yourself and mirrors, you can put headphones in.

Then there’s public transportation, because we all gotta go places.

And there’s prayer and mediation, no one will think less if your hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously avoided based on your avoid being alone principles.

The lunch counter, where you will be surrounded by “chow downers”, employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town, and they, like you, will be alone.

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.

When you are comfortable with “eat lunch and run”, take yourself out for dinner; a restaurant with linen and silver wear. You’re no less an intriguing a person when you are eating solo desert and cleaning the whip cream from the dish with your finger. In fact, some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it’s dark and soothing, alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.

And then take yourself out dancing, to a club where no one knows you, stand on the outside of the floor until the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no ones watching because they’re probably not. And if they are, assume it is with best human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats, is after-all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you’re sweating. And beads of perspiration remind you of life’s best things. Down your back, like a book of blessings.

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, they are always statues to talk to, and benches made for sitting gives strangers a shared existence if only for a minute, and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversation you get in by sitting alone on benches, might of never happened had you not been there by yourself.

Society is afraid of alone though. Like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements. Like people must have problems if after awhile nobody is dating them.

But lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless, and lonely is healing if you make it.

You can stand swaffed by groups and mobs or hands with your partner, look both further and farther in the endless quest for company.

But no one is in your head. And by the time you translate your thoughts an essence of them maybe lost or perhaps it is just kept. Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from pre-school over to high school groaning, we’re tokens for holding the lonely at bay.

Cause if you’re happy in your head, then solitude is blessed, and alone is okay.

It’s okay if no one believes like you, all experiences unique, no one has the same synapses, can’t think like you, for this be relived, keeps things interesting, life’s magic brings much, and it doesn’t mean you aren’t connected, and the community is not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it.

Take silence and respect it.

If you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it, if your family doesn’t get you or a religious sect is not meant for you, don’t obsess about it.

You could be in an instant surrounded if you need it.

If your heart is bleeding, make the best of it.

There is heat in freezing, be a testament.